I have a feeling the stress is all starting to catch up.

I'm just drained today. I'm beat. I have ZERO energy. And I want to do NOTHING. Of course, that's virtually impossible with kids. You know how it goes, the second you sit down to take a load off, someone will be in need of something. And today, my friends, is no exception. The only difference with today is that I really have no energy, or patients for it. I'd love nothing more than to just curl up in my nice comfy bed and sleep for the next 12 hours, in hopes of waking up more refreshed, and feeling better. Maybe then I'd be more willing to tackle this mountain of tasks that await me. The pile of things that will only be done by yours truly. But chances are I'd just wind up with a whopper of a cold or something. Its usually what happens when I stop to take a break, or give myself the opportunity to catch my breath. I get sick.

I'm really wondering if everything that's been going on and causing stress in my life isn't starting to catch up. Its really been many months of non stop stress, dating back to when all four of my children had pneumonia at the same time. It really is one thing after another and those things just seem to be getting bigger and bigger. If it isn't money woes, its school work with the kids. If is isn't car problems, its someone getting sick. Lately its been insurance issues, and what do we go with when insurance renews itself. Do we go with the 377.00 per pay check insurance, or the 230.00 per pay check insurance? Because if we go with the higher one all we have to worry about is the co pays, which are 40.00. If we go with the other one, we have the extra money in our hands, but we have a 1,000 dollar per person, 3,000 max per family deductible to pay before they pay ANYTHING, and then they'll still only cover 80%. I finally told Todd last night that I don't want to be an adult any more. I want to go back to being a kid. Back to when life was care free, and a never ending supply of wonderful!!

I'm sure Dallas' eye surgery and the house stuff that is pending is all adding to the wonderful stress-oh-rama meter. It seems like my brain just doesn't ever shut off. I feel myself dreaming at night, and of course dreaming about things I've been dealing with during the day. So I wake feeling like I've not slept at all. Which would probably be why I feel as sluggish as I do today. I had dreams of house stuff all night last night.

It looks like we'll be closing on the new house on July 15th. And then the work and construction can begin. We'll be converting two bedrooms and a bathroom into one bigger bedroom with a nice closet, and a nice sized bathroom. We'll be putting in a new fence. We'll be replacing all the windows, we'll be replacing all the flooring, we'll be painting everything, and oh yeah, we'll be doing all the work ourselves, with some help from a family friend. And our goal??? To be in and settled before school starts at the beginning of September. Its going to be a busy, crazy, hectic summer. And you add into that all the other things we've got going on, and I can say I'm not excited yet about moving. I'm not looking forward to it, and I'm not really planning. I probably will once things get a little closer, but for now, I'll probably just continue to worry in my sleep!!! I'll post "before the mess" pictures of the house probably tomorrow, when hopefully I have some time.


As for now, I have to rush off to make Todd some dinner before he gets home, so that he can rush in the door, eat, and rush right back out for church.


Maybe now would be a good time for the pep talk of never getting these moments back to try to swing my mood around!!!

Hopefully there's a good nights rest in my future. Hopefully.