A classic case of motor cycle mouth!

The phrase would normally be motor mouth right? Nope. Not when you're talking to Dallas. His teacher has apparently adapted the saying 'you've got motorcycle mouth!' and it stuck. So, Dallas frequently repeats it here at home in reference to his siblings, Todd or I, pretty much anyone who's talking when he wants to talk. Its given us quite the chuckle so I opted for that as my title today. I'm really feeling a classic case of motor cycle mouth coming on!

I don't know what it is, but I often get in these moods where my mind just randomly jumps from one strange topic to the next. It really just free falls, and catches whatever thought happens to be in there! Makes for great day dreaming, but of course is useless when trying to get anything productive done! I figured why not sit at the computer, and let the fingers do the walking while the weird thoughts of the brain do the talking! I thought it might be interesting to go back and read later! Then again, I might scare myself senseless with all the weird junk that's rambling around in there!!! Either way, here goes, be ware!


I've never actually thought of myself as a mom of multiples. I don't know why, but I've just thought of myself as a mom of four. I never understood all the attention we got when we used to go out with the babies when they were little, and everyone would stop us and ooh and aah over the babies for the simple fact that they were twins, and people seem to be drawn to multiples. Those of course were the days that we used to hear the stupid questions. The ones of "Wow, two sets of twins?" , no, actually the first two are 14 months apart. Which then of course opens the door for everyone to have a need to tell me that I have my hands full. After hearing it so much I adopted the saying 'my hands aren't full, my heart is.' Then there were the people who made themselves sound SO educated. The ones who asked 'boy/girl twins! wow! Are they identical?' Ummm, no. It amazes me when you realize all the people that didn't pay attention in health class! Cause there is one MAJOR difference that would make the word IDENTICAL obsolete. Stealing the line from the Arnold movie "boys have a penis, and girls have a vagina." We actually got them shirts that said "Yes we're twins, no we're not identical" We heard it THAT much. But now that I've been surfing the wonderful world wide web, I've come to realize how much support there is out there for moms of multiples. How many different groups or clubs there are, etc. And it hit me. WOW, not everyone can say they have multiples. But I can! That's kinda cool!

I never did join a moms of multiples group here in person, because I always felt that they cost too much money. And being a stay at home mommy of four the income just isn't there for extra a lot. And, I'll admit it, I'm INSANELY shy when it comes to going to new things like that. I never used to be. As a kid I could chat up anyone, and my parents used to think it was interesting that I had friends that lived all over the country, and I would write to them. Then we'd go on vacation, and meet up with them again and it was like not one day had passed. I think its been being a stay at home mom for almost 6 years now that's done me in. Its like my self confidence walked right out the door the day my babies walked in! Its hard to feel like an adult when you constantly have spit up on your shirt, green beans smashed into your socks, and a small baby suck stuck to the inside of your jeans that's been stuck there since you pulled them out of the dryer. And I honestly find that the farther I get from the adult world, the harder it seems to break back into it. I realize in my head just how strange it is that I feel this shy, and this out of touch, its hard not to though. When your conversations for over 6 years revolve around The wiggles, Dora, and who has to go potty next, its hard to break into an adult conversation about the worldly goings on. I have no doubt I COULD if I tried, but its still odd to me. It really does make me realize just how cut throat the outside world is. And also how self absorbed. I don't think I've thought much about me in over 7 years now, my kids, and my husband are always my first priority. So much of our society now is all about ME ME ME. I wonder if when I actually do go back to the working world, someday, when my kids are older, if I'll feel really old, and really out of place. Feeling old at 26. Who would have thunk it!?!?!

Its astonishing how quickly the last 7 years of my life have flown by. You spend so much time in your high school years waiting for life to happen, and willing things to speed up, and hurry up. You are in a rush to be on your own, and in a rush to be in the world as an adult. And then you get there, and things are rushing by faster than a nascar race. It can be very overwhelming. Life as an adult is hard. I wouldn't change a single minute of it, but it really is difficult. Trying to juggle the kids, and dinners, and bills and pets, and house stuff, and errands, and doctors, the list could go on and on. we try to keep it all going, all while trying to make it look easy. Make it look like we're not struggling, or having a hard time. That way those who look in on our lives from time to time think we can handle it, and we don't hear about how young we were when we got our lives started. And how much the odds are against us with how high divorce rates are. Everyone has an opinion to offer you, whether you want it or not.

House stuff is another monster in itself. No one can ever prepare you for how much work a house is. And how frustrating it really can be. No one tells you to be ready for a water pipe to freeze, and that you can't do your laundry for a week straight, until the temps come up some, and the line opens back up. No one tells you BE VERY CAREFUL, that stain really doesn't come out!!! No one tells you how many loads of laundry a day you REALLY have to do to keep caught up, if you can even do that. (ha ha ha! keeping caught up on laundry! What's that?!?! I haven't been caught up in YEARS!) Looking back I realize just how good of a job my parents did at making it look easy. I would have never guessed from them, and how they handled things, that it could be so hard.

You know, the other thing I was never prepared for was how quickly I'd be without friends. In high school I had lots of friends around. I had people I thought would be in my life forever. And then graduation happens, and life happens, and before you know it everyone is scattered like the seeds blown from a dandelion, all over the country, and people that were your close friends soon become your Internet friends because that's the only way you can seem to keep in touch. I never thought when I got married at 19 that my friends would start to slowly pull away, and head their opposite ways, and hardly check in with me. I never considered how DIFFERENT my life plans were than everyone else's. I knew where I was heading in my life, and i was already on the path to it. I had an amazing man who loved me more than anything, and we knew we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together. So, i guess those same friends could have been feeling left in the dust. Here I was, already on course, already ready to make life happen, and they were still trying to figure it out. All part of the growing up process I guess.

So, now I can just be thankful for the Internet. I've met some AMAZING people on the Internet. Some that I hope will be life long friends. And a couple who I've known for years now. And though we've never met officially in person, I know they're there for me. I know they are true friends. They're people i would have NEVER met if it wasn't for this wonderful box hooked up to the phone line in the wall, that brings me out here to a form of adult conversation. Its amazing to me to think about. I can only imagine how moms even 40 years ago felt. I wonder if they felt isolated like me, and if they did, how did they deal with that? At least now when i feel that way, i can turn on a computer screen, and have friends just a click away! It rocks!


This motorcycle moment has to ride off into the sunset now, because there are two little boys, and a day care girl who need to be picked up at school in just a few moments, and I still have to get the twins dressed and ready to go out in the brisk Minnesota spring air. It should be quite the rude awakening from their nice comfy warm naps, to go sit in a car waiting for their brothers to come home, and let the circus ensue!!