I'm going back to school. . .. eeeeeeeeeek!!!

Its been 10 years since I've been in college. TEN YEARS. And here I stand on the edge of going back again, and I'm TERRIFIED. Utterly TERRIFIED. I've spent so much time on researching schools, and majors, and options. And finally I've come to one that seems to be the right fit. At least for now.

I've applied, taken the entrance exams (which I thought I would fail miserably, and instead placed right into the college courses. Exciting and scary all at the same time!! WOW), I've talked to financial aide and signed my life away, and today I go to register for my first quarter of classes. Today it all becomes official. I know what classes I'll take. When I'll be going to school. What will be on line, what will be in person. Did I mention I'm terrified? What on earth was I thinking???

I know that this has been our plan all along. Well, from the moment we made it official that I was going to be a stay at home mom for our kids. We knew that the day would come where they would all be in school and my best option would be to return to school myself. All of my certifications in the medical field had passed the year after I started staying home, so I'd be starting from scratch anyway. And that day is here. I'm done with the raising little babies part, and we're onto just growing them bigger now. And I'm working towards working outside the house again. . . .YIKES!!!!

So today is just another big step towards the end goal of two working parents. Today is a big step towards me becoming ME again. Not that I haven't enjoyed being home with my kids, don't get me wrong. But this is doing something for me. What a strange concept! The past ten years have been consumed with kids and everything associated with them. And now its my turn. Weird.